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Name: Yin Bin Hao Fabian
Birthday: 9th November 1988
Horoscope: Scorpio
Currently serving national service
Previously from Temasek Polytechnic
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grandma passed away
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
27 june, tuesday
2nd dae of sch reopenin. mornin woke up at abt 10+. actually wanna 10 reach sch study de. cos book study room from 10 to 2. but den i lazy wanna slp so i 10+ wake up. den i abt 11 reached sch wan 2 do hw which is ma larx. den surpose 2 meet pw at 11 de marx. but den this same as mi lazy de oso juz woke up. so she din come at 11. den gen oso woke up late so nt comin.
den i was studyin ma miself. n readin through. den abt 12+? pw msg mi sae she reach liao. den we went 2 eat first. i eat fish n chips while she eat breaded chicken wif cheese. we oso shared fries wif cheese. den we eat eat eat til v full liao. hahax. den dunno how she eat til can bite her own lips. clumsy! wahahax. =p jk nia.
den we eat til abt 1 like tt den went 2 lib do hw liao. no time liao le. so we went there 2 do. den end up haf do larx. den gen came in 2 help us oso. thx. =) den we went fer ma liao le.
in ma gt results. i gt 23/40. ok larx cos i din study marx. wad 2 do. hahax. i wil do better next time de. den after tt went 2 om. i gt 37/50. okay larx nt bad cos i oso last min study de. den after tt i went 2 hospital c mi grandma liao le.
took bus to opp tampines lib there den change to 38. den wan board bus jeremy tap mi. hahax. he stayin there marx. so we on bus chat liao larx. hahax. abt soccer lo. den on the bus mi mum suddenly called. sae grandma unconscious liao le. i was like 'HUH!?' on bus v loud. den when i reach e stop i chiong to hospital liao.
reach there quite alot of ppl there liao le. she changed her ward liao. den was havin the mask on. she was like semi conscious. den we were all like. dunno larx. we all tryin 2 help her marx. cos mi uncle which is her onli son wil onli b back on thur. den we dunno she can tong so long nt. den there's sometink wrong wif her breathing as inside alot of phlem marx.
den at nite i left. cos tml stil haf sch marx. den they all sae she shd b can tong til so long marx. den dunno y i reach home liao le i cant slp. i was juz tossin n turnin there. den i double check wif mi mum c if she's ok. den she sae she wil b ok as they wil try 2 prolong her life til mi uncle comes back.
but den at abt 1+. suddenly 1 sms came. mi mum typed. 'grandma dead' i was like. i din knoe how 2 react. it came so sudden. it's like juz nw i saw her she's stil alive n we all told her 2 hang on. den suddenly.... she passed away. den mi dad sae cos her heart stopped beatin. den cant save. den mi dad came 2 fetch mi there. i on e way there was like stun n shock. i dunno wad 2 do nor react. was juz stoning.
den when i reach liao. it was so late. den can c everyone of them e eyes is like red. den i said nth n went 2 cher. but cant cos they doin tinks. dressin her back 2 her own clothes. but when i reach this time lesser ppl. abt 10+ onli. in the nite alot of ppl came abt 40+ i tink? ya haf. den when they dress ready liao we can go c her.
i was like. dunno y ppl ard mi cried while i dun haf tears. i reallie dun haf tears. y? y? y? m i tt cold hearted? i juz dunno y tears dun come out. haiz. den there she is. lying there. this is the 1st time i reallie experience this. i was speechless. there she is. lying motionless, chest nt movin. eye's closed. she's like juz... sleeping.
mi mind went blank. reallie juz blank. den after tt they pushed her into a room which we followed n wait fer the funeral ppl talk her 2 emballment i tink. dunno how 2 spell. nt important abt the spellin oso. den we were like all.. she's like...
we went home after tt. my mum while on the car was like sayin how mi grandma 1 dae b4 predicted tt she wil change ward. den how she choosed the rite time to pass away n nt let us suffer. from the time of discovery til nw was like 1mth plus onli. den even though semi conscious she stil tried to pull off her oxygen mask. she dun wan 2 b a burden 2 us. but we dun let her. mi heart is reallie in pieces. it's like since young she saw how i grow up.
when i was an infant i stayed at her house haf garden 1. den she haf 3 dogs which 1 of them c fierce. but den she would sae how i would bully e dog n always ran 2 hit it n ride it like a horse. (poor dog) den after tt she carried on 2 took care of mi til pri 4 like tt. ut i was v naughty. sometimes scoldin her. sworrie.
den after tt last yr she was like so normal. everytink was fine. den few days back she stil was fine lying on the bed there talkin 2 us n ask mi 2 study hard n no time dun go visit her. den few hrs back she stil can nod 2 us. but nw... she's juz...
i was lookin at the videos i took in mi hp. 1 was last yr her bd while 2 was this yr her bd. mi tears started 2 flow. i dunno y. i missed her. i reallie missed her. even though i dun express mi love fer her but... i reallie love her dearly.

28 june, wedenesday
after sleepin 3hrs i woke up. haf 2 go to gt ready her funeral tinks. i din went 2 sch, asked karen n fel 2 help mi in sch. thx gals. den reach there. saw her body again. we do rituals. den how they put her into e coffin. she look beautiful. =) she's like snow white juz sleepin inside. den we folded the paper inscience which wil b burnt. den we attended 2 ppl comin 2 visit her. but... i stil feel... nth can describe how i feel. inside mi i reallie feel v sad. but i cant cry again. no tears. dunno y. den there were askin mi where's mi gf. cos mi other 2 cousins older than mi haf brought their gf 2 let her c already. but i dun haf. haiz. grandma yr grandson nt gd enough larx. cant bring u a gf 2 c. haiz. den alot of tinks. was there from mornin 8 til at nite 10+. nw v tired. tml goin sch n after sch goin there again, haiz. these days wil nt b online barx. nt sure. c how barx. anytink juz call or msg mi barx. ya. i miss mi grandma. grandma i love u. once mi grandma always mi grandma. this life i cant repay u. next life i wil repay u fer the tinks tt u taught mi. the care n concern u gave mi. thx. i reallie from the bottom of my heart appreciate it. i love you...

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