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Name: Yin Bin Hao FabianBirthday: 9th November 1988 Horoscope: Scorpio Currently serving national service Previously from Temasek Polytechnic Logistics and Operations Management Tagboard
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Wednesday, January 10, 2007
i finally understood. it took me so long, so long 2 understand tt she's nt mine. or shd i rephrase it as i n her wont progress further than friends barx. i haf been tinkin alot. so many ppl had told me tt i shdnt had liked her in e 1st place. tt i was dumb. dumb 2 like someone who has a bf. tink abt e i like her almost abt a year le barx since last april like tt. life is weird. u cant control your feelings. there are always alot of thoughts tt run through my mind, the wad if's n why's. but all i can sae is if she's happie, i wil b happie fer her too. she cried when she quarrel wif her bf, this shows tt she reallie cared fer him, had feelings fer him. she grins when sms-in each other. after a phone call from him she wil b smiling from ear to ear. deep inside i feel happie fer her but sad fer miself. there're so much tinks tt words cant describe. thoughts n images. alot n alot of tinks tt cant b blogged. i tried so hard. i nearly wanted to tell her abt how i felt fer her. but i didnt. timid? but i scared that it would make our friendship turn fer e worst. i dunno wad shd i do. i kept tinkin of her. but does she feel e same way? she wil always like her guy barx. tt dae. all i wanted 2 hear was tt since she agreed 2 go out wif me, she will stil stick to it even it was nt well planned. but... it din happened. i was sad. as in i cried barx. was feelin y i'm so dumb. i dressed up when goin out. as i had so much hope tt everytink would turn out fine. but it didnt. i had waitied so long. but in e end juz as i predicted it was a bad dae. from the beginning when i met ehr i wasnt sure i would like her. but through daily chats, my feelings towards her grew. when she was sad i was sad fer her too. i tried so hard 2 make her cheer up. i rem wad she like, wad she dislike. i tried 2 understand her better. understand the ppl ard her, wads happening and so on.. but wats e pt? i reallie dunno wad am i doin. perhaps i was too stupid? i reallie dunno if shes e gal i reallie like. but i haf hurt myself already. so it doesnt matter anymore. i shdnt b buggin her like tt. askin her out fer example. n tinkin of her so much. someone pls slap me awake. i shdnt i shdnt i shdnt. haiz. |
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