okays school as started for about a week now.. still seriously trying to get use to the life of being a student. listening to lectures.. printing my notes.. reading up on textbooks before lectures.. and homework.. kinda feel really sad for myself not being able to get into a local university. looking at peeps from nus, ntu and smu having so much fun mixing with so many friends during their education period. the only thing that lacks in sim is tutorial classes. how nice would it be if life was like poly. probably i wouldn't mind paying a few extra thousands or maybe half a semester more just to interact more with people. these days i seriously feel lonely. there's just not much interacting inside my course due to lectures and purely lectures only. probably i am so used to being with so many people during my poly times and in the army. being surrounded by people is what i enjoy and cherish. in addition a part of me still can't stop thinking about that person. i think by then all of you are already bored to death by my constant rumblings about this girl. well she's busy in school taking 7 modules this sem while i only take a miserable 4 modules and i cant even handle it well. and here am i constantly waiting for her to contact me. fat hope can! after my days in army i felt that i never really matured from the time since poly? my friends have already graduated from uni while i just started studying in uni. people are working actively for the past 3 years while here am i studying with a loan. people are enjoying their lives fully while here am i sulking away at myself. ever thought of plans that you may have? probably like finishing your degree at 25 years old? getting married at this age. and various plans? well the more i look at this world the more i get disillusioned. the world is not that simple after all. so many things were happening around me without me knowing. i feel like such a kid oblivious to my surroundings. i feel i lack so much stuff.. too many for me to compensate or make up for.. well life sucks. fml. hopefully my school life will turn for the better.